Under the Darkness of Depression a Cyclist Pursues Zen by Bike

"I was in his office seeking help for my depression, anxiety, and irritability. For more than a year I’d been struggling with some of my personal relationships, but most especially with my wife Shana and our young sons, who are 8 and 5. I could go from calm to explosive almost as quickly as a firecracker. My boys thought me angry, sometimes mean. Shana and I had been distant for months; I couldn’t recall the last time we’d kissed.

At 53, I had already been through four depressive episodes. I had always resisted taking medication, wanting to feel the full range of my emotions. But with the well-being of three other people at stake, I was open to seeing if I could be medicated into a more placid version of myself."

Read more from author Patrick Brady in Bicycling Magazine.